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How to be by yourself

In this week post, I wanted to approach a different kind of subject. I want to talk about how to be by yourself alone and not be lonely. It is very hard to comprehend, you are not surrounded by people but at the same time, you feel like you have everything you need to be happy.

I am writing this type of article today because my two weeks isolation is coming to an end and I learned so much in this past few weeks that I wanted to share with you guys.

I have been now through two self-isolation and what I can say is that it sucks, to be honest. Just the thought of not being able to go outside drives you crazy. Then the anxiety happens and you don't know what to do with yourself. This is how I felt the first time when I did self-isolation in March at the beginning of the pandemic. I was unmotivated to do anything, not even to eat. I would sleep most of the day and stay up all night doing basically nothing. It was a rough time. A transition from living my dream life in London to just sitting in a room without any reassurance about the future. I was scared those weeks, the pandemic just started and my parents were still going full-time to work. It was hard.

But after a few months, after we got used to the whole Covid-19, life seemed to have returned to a bit of how it was before. We went on trips, meet with my friends and I reflected a lot on what I want to do with my life.

I have started this blog, experimenting with photography more, learned about how social media works and started two new courses online. All this summer. What I have thought will be a boring, hopeless summer turned out to be one of the best in my life.

Because of that, I promised myself that for this quarantine, I will not waste those two precious weeks for sleeping and binging Netflix. I will use them in my advantage to grow even more because nobody can bring back lost time.

It was not easy at the beginning of these two weeks. I just came back from my home country, where I have stayed for almost 7 months with my family. I got used to having people surrounding me wherever I go, waking up with loud noises in the house and just spending more time with my family. To go back to being myself 24/7 in every aspect. It is so easy to fall back in loneliness, but you need to move on.

Rough time as it was at the beginning at least I tried to do as many things as I could to forget about those feelings and it became a routine. After three-four days, I got so used to, that I didn't feel anxious anymore. I have started another online course, started another internship as well and put more time into growing my art page on social media. Time flew by and now I am at the end of my two-week isolation.

What I want to say with my story is that to be able to accept and embrace being by yourself is to have goals and desires in your professional life. You need to know yourself better, to know what brings you joy and exploit it. Try making a career out of it and become the best in the field. In order to embrace your being, you need to know yourself.

You can't be lonely when you have yourself.

Always think of that.

Put pressure to become the best person you can be. Have leisure fun moments where you go and explore the city by yourself, have dinner with you, buy yourself presents. This is not loneliness, this is you accepting you.

You are what you need.

Thank you for your support!

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